“When I realized that simple fact, all those struggles that I had experienced in the past became the source of my strength.”
Growing up, my family life was unstable. After a particularly difficult period, which culminated in my mom kicking my dad out of the house, my parents separated and life changed drastically. It was a very tough period and I think I always had this underlying sense of anxiety growing up – not knowing what was going to happen next. And with that, there was this sense of being paralyzed, of not knowing what to do next.
I wandered through life without direction – letting it happen without awareness of who I wanted to be, where I wanted to go and with no sense of being connected to my life. I went to school, got a job, moved to a different city, got into different relationships. It was only after truly falling in love and being scared witless about it that my anxiety came front and center and I experienced a serious bout where I needed to see multiple therapists, psychiatrists, and was even briefly on medication.
I knew I could not go living like this. I finally got to a point where I had this realization that Life did not just happen TO me, it happened FOR me. When I realized that simple fact, all those struggles that I had experienced in the past became the source of my strength. They made me the strong and loving person that I am today. I feel I now have that direction and purpose that was missing before and am much more fulfilled, connected, and excited about my life.